That’s it. I’ve decided to blog my heart out today.

First off, I’ve had it. Had what? I’ve had it with YOU implying that I am controlling my boyfriend. So what’s new? Well, let me tell you... for the Nth time -- I DO NOT CONTROL ANYONE, ESPECIALLY THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.  Love is like a butterfly, hold it tight and it will crush, but hold it loose and it will fly. If he does anything UNBELIEVABLE (by your standards), you hold me accountable. I am not accountable for anyone’s actions. I do not manipulate anyone. If anyone does something far out for me, it’s because that person is in love with me! You would do ANYTHING for the one you love. I know I would do anything for my boyfriend. Wait, wait… HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? I mean REALLY in love!? Do you even know what LOVE does to a person? Have you even felt like you can’t live without someone? Well then, why can’t you understand it? It’s not like I’m making my boyfriend jump into the mud or have him wipe the shit out of me! If I’d want him to take me out on a spin, we take my car.  If he takes your car, then your best guess should be because he wants to go out for a ride. I’m just saying this because I have a hunch you’re making so much outrageous comments and snide remarks.

So last night, just because he didn’t answer his phone, you blame it on me? Yes, I happened to read the text message you sent him. I don’t tell him what to do, FYI. If he doesn’t answer his phone, have you even considered it was on silent mode or that he was doing something else and didn’t hear it ring…(it happens to me, too!)... aside from saying it’s because I tell him not to pick it up? I mean…what the hell are you taking me for? SOMEONE LIKE YOU? Come on, you’re the person who wants to prove something. Not me. I don’t need to prove our love because you can see it… In fact, ANYONE can see it. If you can’t, you’re probably blind. If I don’t want you calling my boyfriend, then I could shut off his phone… but because I surely don’t mind it, then I couldn’t give a rat’s ass. Call all you want. Trouble us if that’s what you intend to. You know what, I try to think you don’t exist, for my anger management, but you make it so hard for me to ignore you. Congrats! You succeeded last night.

Seriously, stop pointing fingers at me every time my boyfriend does something. He is 20 years old. Say what? That’s young? Let me tell you, 20 is just a number! I know a lot of 30-to-40-plus-year-old men who don’t know the difference between shit and shawarma. You raised a good son… in fact, he’s like a freaking zombie to you, noh? Oh, that’s right… You’re his mom and you have EVERY RIGHT because what? You own him? Ummm.. whatever, okay? I’m not even going there. My only concern is that YOU STOP POINTING FINGERS AT ME.

Have you considered that he does things because he WANTS to? Take this scenario for example. I work the whole day, but my boyfriend insists he comes over even though I can’t really give him much attention. But why does he do that? He says because he wants to SEE me… and he’s quite content by just doing that. Awww how sweet, right? That’s what people in love do. So don’t even think it’s my freaking idea because seriously, I need to earn a living and I value every single second of my time… (Negosyante man ka karon… time is gold, diba?) But that also does not stop me from seeing him because I am happy whenever I am with him. I don’t mind having him around in spite of my work demands because I love him. If truth be told, my stress disappears… He is also my perfect drug and I can’t live without him, too. I’m pretty sure he feels the same way, not because he tells me so (or because I TOLD HIM so) but because I feel it. People in love feel the need to be together. So please just try to understand that being IN LOVE isn’t bad. Please stop insinuating that I am a slave driver… because if I want a Man Friday, I could freaking hire one.

What? I’m rude now? I’m uncouth, crude, impolite? Well, I am HUMAN. I hurt every time my boyfriend gets hurt… Don’t even ask why. You know very well he gets anxiety attacks and he hyperventilates. Rushing to the emergency room has become very familiar to me now. If you’re his mom then you should know what that’s like. I don’t like it one bit but I put up with it because I can’t lose him. I love him and even if you think I am NOT GOOD for him which bothers me remarkably, I won’t give in to that. I will fight for my love like I told you from the start and with all due respect, if you can’t stand it, please… just stand aside.

Amor vincit omnia.

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 P.S. I feel so much better now. Have a Happy Sunday everyone!

Light-reflecting metal beads cover the thong-style strap of a classic flip flop.
You just got to have it! 



So much for REHAV!



But wait.. I've been on REHAV, wasn't I? Yes, I am still...
Because I didn't BUY this myself ha!
(Okay, so maybe he used my account but I didn't purchase it... Hee hee.)
Defensive?
NOT!
This was a gift. ^_^

He asked me what I wanted... Obviously, THIS was my answer.
Need I say who it's from?







Lucky me... (mami?) Hee Hee. Mmm... You betcha!



Ain't it just drool-worthy?




So let me just say it... one more time... HAVAIANAS is LVE.
[[Addiiiiiiikk... na kung adik!!!]]

Thanks lover for all the lurrrvvveee...


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I got this email today and I thought I might share this with you guys... ^_^ See? I'm nice... LOL!


by Sulit.com.ph (MyMaria)

Just click THAT and sign up!

In the spirit of a successful Community Outreach with Bantay Bata 163, Sulit.com.ph is excited to present Sulit Sa Saya 5 - Charity Pledge Raffle where you have a chance to win cool prizes by simply supporting our next charity project called Sulit.com.ph Charity Pledge.

I use Sulit.PH to sell civet coffee among others. They cover a greater area like eBay so the chances of advertising your products to a larger market is pretty big. I sound like a salesperson. Blah! So yeah... anyways, sellers and buyers alike... what are you waiting for???


by Sulit.com.ph (MyMaria)

Let's try our luck! Who knows!?


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Initially, I DID NOT plan on doing this *ever*, but due to popular demand... and some spare time on my hands, I had to. So here you go, you asked for it! =^_^=

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (or the + sign) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.) -- I AM NOT TAGGING ANYONE IN MULTIPLY! So there! Tag yourself if you want. Tee hee!

1. Purple will ALWAYS be my color.

2. The last meal I would like to eat before I die is Orange Brutus Value Meal #7.

3. I am perpetually broke... but I am happy.

4. I eat noodles, twice a day.

5. I am accident-prone. I have had stitches and scars from head to foot. Once I sliced my left eyeball (accidentally?) with cuticle scissors.

6. I have fertility issues... and my clock is ticking!

7. I am an excellent student but the worst teacher.

8. English is my forte. That includes spellchecking and proofreading. Therefore, I write with passion and a bookworm is what I am. People text me for word definitions. It should be called Merriam-Webster-Velasquez dictionary... NOW!!!

9. I have a weakness for anything battery-operated... and I reckon I'll die without electricity.

10. My dream is to be a housewife but my ultimate dream is to live forever in BoraBora, French Polynesia with my bao.

11. I *can* cook ANYTHING... except for rice. ^_^

12. I refuse to dance because I dance like nobody is watching.

13. Netizen since 1995. That's 13 years of cyberspace residency.

14. Math is the bane of my existence.

15. Of all things idiopathic, I acquired erythema nodosum. Obviously, I don’t know why or how and neither do 6 doctors I have consulted with. Go figure.

16. I won my first beauty pageant when I was 6. e_e

17. I’m a frustrated VJ, model, actress, and celebrity.

18. I truly believe that procrastination is very much like masturbation. It feels good at first, until you realize you just fucked yourself. =D

19. I won't use blue-inked pens.

20. I always wonder what it would be like to be waterproof.

21. I tried to kill myself once. But then overdosing didn't seem to work. Maybe I’ll try something else next time. (Just kidding!)

22. A song had been written for me and with my name “MARIA” as the title. You can listen to it. It’s the first song in the album: http://www.esnips.com/playlist/e5234b27-120e-4689-8fee-3b5aecb6c382

23. The only sports I play are those that involve balls and a table, i.e. ping-pong, billiards, and mahjong (naa man bola sa madjong!).

24. I just realized that I spent approximately PHP 500,000 in less than 2 years. There I've said it! Damn! And I've learned my lesson well.

25. My boyfriend's mother does not like me. I think it very well follows the whole monster mother-in-law cliché. Just another drama in my life. So I am gonna stop defending myself now because what you see is what you get! Me + Manoy = IN LOVE. End of story. <3



Copied from my Facebook notes.

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In light of the upcoming flick, Confessions of a Shopaholic... and yours truly blogging about My Shopaholic Confession, I found some photos of Isla Fisher that reminds me of... well, who does it remind me of?




http://bastaigatsikat.blogspot.com/2009/02/my-shopaholic-confession.html

My understanding of love leading to happiness has given everything in my life a new meaning. Now that I’ve come of age, I have felt the contentment that I had always anticipated. Of course, I wouldn’t mind having more money in my measly bank account but as far as relationships and my 25 years of existence are concerned, my life has never been better. I know for a fact that with whatever problems/trials that would come, I would easily breeze through it (perhaps being manhid has its advantages) and that nothing would ever change my mind whenever I set my heart on it. I have proven that and I am as stubborn as ever. Unyielding? You can say that again! Because I never believed in denying one’s happiness, I sometimes become completely tolerant; so tolerant that even if it seems stupid already, as long as it makes you happy (and it doesn’t break the Golden Rule and measures up to the rules of Karma), I am all for it. I mean, Sheryl Crow did sing, “If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad!”

A text message I received today stated: There’s no point in sacrificing your happiness when it does not conform to what your heart dictates. As everyone is created uniquely, everyone does get a right to choose where they’d be happy. If it ensures lifetime happiness, then GO FOR IT! You wouldn’t want a miserable life faking the world with smiles, right? Right! And I know a lot of people who had sought for the meaning of life and ended up with finding love instead, which eventually led to happiness. I know I did. For me, I think love and happiness go hand in hand. A few Valentines ago, I wrote about not rushing into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it and that you need to try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship. Only then can one be contented and then be truly happy.



So many things have been written about love. Some people call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go; we are wrong, it's just pity. Some people call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life; we misunderstood, it’s just that we're too much dependent on them. And then there are people who call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave, no one would accept us and our past; we are mistaken, it’s just insecurity.

I have learned over time that searching for that “right” person for yourself isn’t the way it should be. All those fairy tale stories of Prince Charming, the knight in shining armor, or our modern day Edward Cullen, the vampire on a shiny silver Volvo, are just for hopeless romantics. You can wait forever but waiting is all you’ll ever do. On the other hand, you can be the “right” person for someone.  So instead of asking the question, “Is this the right person for me?” why not ask, “Am I being the right person? Am I being a person who comes to a relationship filled with love to share, or am I being a needy person hoping to get love and validation?” I think that our relationships fail not because he or she isn’t the right person, it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own. But I guess the main reason that many relationships don't work is because each person is disappointed in not getting what they expected to get from the other person.



You see, it is actually fairly easy to know if this is the right person for you when your intent in being in a relationship is to learn together and share love. It would be very ideal when two people are truly open to learning about themselves, to growing emotionally and spiritually, to taking responsibility for their own feelings of safety and security, worth and lovability, and will not be attracted to a person who is closed, controlling, and just wants to get love. But remember that knowing if this is the right person for you does not happen instantly. It takes months to discover whether or not a person is who they say they are. I’ve known the person I am in love with for 8 years, and it’s only now that I’ve realized that you cannot really know who a person is until you have conflict and find out what this person does in conflict. Some people can appear very open and loving until a conflict comes up and then they get angry, withdraw, resist or comply, closing down rather than staying open to learning about themselves and the other person. Since none of us enter relationships fully healed, it is very important to know that your partner is willing to explore conflict rather than just protect against it with controlling behavior. Conflict occurs in all relationships, and if both people are not open to learning about themselves and each other within the conflict, the unresolved conflicts will eventually destroy the relationship. We should all keep that in mind.

When we think we're in love the first thing we want the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional, or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. George Sand beautifully expressed that, “there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.” Love can bring authentic happiness and a smile to the most hard-hearted people. There is nothing or no one in life that love cannot change. The simplest way to achieve authentic happiness is by always being surrounded by people you love. When you are around your loved ones, it gives you a sense of belonging which can buffer you from stress. Love is a language the dumb can speak, a wonderful sight that the blind can see, and a harmonious song that the deaf can hear.



As with Feng Shui, if you want happiness then share happiness with all you meet and if you want love then give love freely and from your heart. But you know what is the most important tip for happiness? Love deeply and passionately. Sure enough you will get disappointed and hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely. I am in love and I am happy; therefore, to love is to be happy.



Let's celebrate life and love this coming V-Day!!! Happy Hearts Day, everyone!

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Konnichiwa!
 

Last night, I decided to resume watching my Sailor Moon Stars (Season 5) DVD and a few minutes into watching the episodes, my dad told me the exciting news. He said, "Naa'y lunar eclipse karon gabie!" (There's a lunar eclipse tonight!)

WHAT A COINCIDENCE!!! Hmmm... Are the people of the White Moon trying to tell me something? HAHA!



So in between each episodes, I kept going up and down our 2nd floor terrace to check on the moon. Whew! I think I burned a lot of calories there! Well, maybe I was secretly hoping to see Queen Serenity or Sailor Moon herself? LOL! =^_^=



So anyways, I didn't catch the lunar eclipse. Hehe. But I still managed to take a some shots at the start. They aren't the best but these will do. I guess.



The Sailor Moon episodes got me too preoccupied. ^_^ Damn anime babes!



The penumbral lunar eclipse on February 9, 2009 is not the only eclipse to occur during the year. The list of eclipses for 2009 includes:

•     An annular solar eclipse on January 26.
•     A penumbral lunar eclipse on February 9.
•     A penumbral lunar eclipse on July 7.
•     A total solar eclipse on July 22.
•     A penumbral lunar eclipse on August 6.
•     A partial lunar eclipse on December 31.

This illustration shows the penumbral lunar eclipse on February 9, 2009. It is fairly close to scale and illustrates how the moon passes through the penumbral portion of the earth’s shadow. Source: http://www.timeanddate.com/eclipse/lunar-eclipse-february-2009.html

Well, I think I'm better off dreaming about my Tuxedo Mask/Prince Endymion than taking pictures of eclipses anyway.



So how about you, guys? Did you have any luck with the 月食 Gesshoku (lunar eclipse)?

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http://bastaigatsikat.blogspot.com/2009/02/my-shopaholic-confession.html
Read the title! ^_^

Enjoy!

Remember a year or so ago, I posted this blog???


CLICK: http://mymaria.multiply.com/journal/item/196/Flickr_anyone

It was around that time I purchased my Nikon cam and started to explore the world of photography. Although, I haven't gotten very far because I didn't get the chance to fully study it or experiment much, but I'd like to say, I love taking pictures... with myself being the main subject! LOL! But not even in the pro kind of way. You know, just your social networking kind of photos... A little something to flaunt.. and daunt! Sa maka una lang...

But today is a different day -- in this aspect of my life, anyway. I never did get around to purchasing a Flickr Pro account, but I wasn't worried either since I had less than 200 photos in my photostream. I don't log in to Flickr every day either, but today I decided to check for messages because I had posted some pictures from yesterday's shoot. So, here I go checking the comments when a private message from someone caught my eye. I didn't recognize his name either, so I got curious. I had even more questions in my mind when I read this:



For real???

So I went to the Flickr Pro page where I could try to check if the codes were legit, and to my astonishment...



It worked!



So therefore, I conclude that there are still nice people left in the world, though they be few and far between. I then decided to shoot a message back thanking him and also asking if the gift was really meant for me or it could have been a mistaken identity or something... but I'm still waiting for his reply.

This could be a sign... maybe a career move? Should I formally study photography now? Umm, if ever, can anyone point me to the right direction? And.... ummm, do you really think I could do this?

So many questions...

.. And uhhh, is 2012 really gonna be the end? LOL!



P.S. Thank you, John, for the gift of Flickr!

UPDATE: He sent me these messages...





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